This morning I got up to find he had stacked all of his dishes into the dishwasher EXCEPT for my two measly cereal bowls.
WHAT?
When I asked why he said it was to prove a point - ????
Ohhh, he means the point that I've been cleaning up his shit for the last five months without complaint constantly and that he's a fu*king arsehole flat mate?
POINT TAKEN WANKER
Added to which two weekends ago his parents landed on our doorstep for four nights over the weekend without giving me any notice (we live in a two bedroom apartment). He has five mates descending upon the place this weekend. He has no manners whatsoever. Sometimes I can't see the friggin furniture for his socks and jocks. GROSS. OVER IT. Over his cheapness and over his attitude.
I am hereby looking for a new place to live and a new flat mate.
This is a shout out to my good friend Lanes who, despite having an intensely high flying and important international job, has an incredibly relaxed countenance and approach to life.
I had to wear white to detract from the green tinge my face is taking on today. Prince William and Cate are an amazing couple and I'm beside myself for them but I can't help but feel completely jealous. Not because she will one day be queen, but because someone loves her enough to want to spend the rest of their life with her. I deserve that too.
They are a team. They decided together. They've shared 8 years together so far and many more. I deserve this too.
It's following that everything in my life has momentarily lost its rosey glow. I feel completely used and underappreciated at work. Terribly unmotivating.
The only saving grace today is that I know my lovely friend is returning to the homelands after three long years abroad and I cannot wait to have her grounding and caring presence more local.
After backing up on the party front both Friday and Saturday night I am feeling a little worse for wear still.
I want to hydrate, have a facial, inject nutrients back into my skin.
I also want to pass a motion to not drink in excess ever again. What is the point? It only serves to make me a damn fool who doesn't know what time it is.
I had an epiphany this morning and this is largely feeding my lack of concentration, that I drink and smoke to cover up stuff. There is a need in me to do it. But what is that need? Where does it come from?
Is it because I feel like I can't be myself when I am out with friends/boys?
Is it a confidence thing?
Is it a mystery veil, a barrier that stands between the me deep down and everyone else getting to know that deep down me?
Is it sheer boredom?
Perhaps it's a combination of these things. All I know at this point; it can't go on like this.
I am willing to change. I am willing to release the need.
Aside from getting up at 5am and going for a super athlete work out at the gym I have spent the majority of today on my couch, napping, watching crap tv and gazing out at the amazing blue sky.
For reasons unknown to me I'm completely lazy and unmotivated to get off it.
I know I should. Saturdays minus hangovers are fabulous.
But I'm so tired. And I feel like carb loading because of my tiredness.
Also, I feel like some trifle. I do love trifle. Maybe with some syrup in it as well.
Boo is in Sydney and I miss him.
Mama L is going back to France soon too but I wish she would stay. It would be so nice to have her here full time.
Also, I just bought some white converse sneakers and a red dress on ASOS.
Friday night drinks and eating was conducted at a favourite haunt at Southbank - Piaf.
It has the best eye fillet in Brisbane. At $22 for an eye fillet with mushroom duxelle, jus and beetroot pure, this is the best value steak, hands down.
It is flavoursome, always cooked to perfection and the perfect portion with a delicate French twist.
The service is 10 out of 10. On a busy night we were seated straight away with no booking. Out waiter was attentive and everything came out within 15 minutes, all at once.
I am well impressed with this place. It is easily one of the top restaurants around this joint without the pomp and matching pricing tag.
People of Brisbane - check out Piaf - I guarantee you will not be disappointed.
I cannot believe I'm on Site, the LEAST glamorous place on earth. I vow this time next year I will be in one of the Marquees among the Mumm and celebs with the chicest outfit to boot.